if i got a cat i would name it baby

so. i worked all day yesterday and didn't make as much money as i would have liked to but still made more money than i probably would elsewhere. i went and checked on my interview at bui yah kah and she said she would either call me today or monday. she didn't call today so i hope she calls monday. 'cos i like my job when i make sales but i don't like 11 hour days and all that. and no one ever wants to buy lotion. or overpriced exfoliating treatments. or fucking $150 face lift kit. even though some people really need them.

this morning my mom told me and melissa she doesn't know how she raised such stupid children. how mean!

i got up early today. and then i had lunch with tricia and lynn and my grandma and mi madre in houston. what a WONDERFUL combination, especially considering the mood i was in. if you've ever MET tricia or my grandma, you would understand.

i almost bought a cat. it was a kitten actually. i'm still kind of considering it. its $40 and it has all its shots and its SO CUTE and its really friendly. but shania would feel jealous and i don't want to make her feel bad. my cats are so spoiled. i bought them all this catnip and they wouldn't play with it. shania actually got really mad at me.

something good happened today and something bad happened too. and i thought about a lot of stuff and now i don't know what to do.
dammit if i could just get a new boyfriend then maybe that would help. but i'm really SHY and still so hung up on marc. its a lose lose situation it looks like.

I WISH I LOOKED JUST LIKE JENNIFER LOPEZ!
nikki says jennifer lopez is ugly. i think nikki is silly.

so. what i did today.
filled my prescriptions
ate.
cleaned out some closet.

WOW! how exciting!
damn i need a life. i need new friends. i love my old ones. but i think they get sick of me. if i had a ton of friends i could rotate so when some got sick of me i could shift and then when they got sick i could switch until no one was sick of me anymore and the rotation would start all over. but my old friends would still be my favorites. even if they are weird

note to self buy some earrings

my daddy and rita are coming back from jamaica tomorrow. my daddy said he would buy me a cross like the one he bought me last summer. it was so pretty it was made out of onyx. i'm not even a christian but i wore the cross because it was so pretty. then it broke. i think he will forget but whatever. i'm going to mexico next week. on a cruise. i don't think i've told anyone that yet except for my boss.

i may start experimenting with make up. just to see how it looks. but don't get your hopes up xiomy and melissa it would be a minimal amount. i would have to be unconscious to let anybody clog my pores up with that SHIT- foundation, powder, eyeshadow- hell fucking no. maybe some eyeliner and a tinted lip gloss.

i'm working all day tomorrow and 11-6 on sunday.. and possibly monday because i have vacation from the 20th to the 31st. thats a long vacation.

god i don't want to go back to school. its not like i'm worried about the work. i don't even HAVE a first period class. and of course i have to take economics/govt. and Eng. IV but those are academic level classes and i won't even have to think. i am a little bit worried about Chemistry but that will be academic too- i just hate science. but all my friends have already taken it so maybe they will remember some of it. i'm so bad at science. i was considering just not taking it at all but then i would have to graduate minimum requirement and i don't know how well that would go over with colleges. i'm not sure if i regret not taking a science course soph. year then i wouldn't have to take it this year but i took music theory instead soooo.. i'll be in Spanish III and there isn't an academic level for that but spanish is easy everyone already speaks it anyway so that won't be a problem. then there's choir and music theory. i already took music theory. music theory is an ap class actually so i will get an ap credit for it. is that the same as a college credit? second semester i might have to retake US History but i need to talk to my counselor about all that. 'cos i passed the class i just didn't go to the class enough.

i just don't want to have to deal with those fucking people on a day to day basis. i don't like most of them. but whatever, this is the last year i have to hear ANY of their shit again. then i will leave this stupid town and go somewhere where no one knows me. i wanted to leave this year but it doesn't look like we're going to be moving. whatever, we couldn't go as far as i wanted to anyway.

all my pride is all i have
pride is what you HAD baby girl i'm what you HAVE

well, there's just not much to say.
mwah.

CHAO